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Hold my hand, I won’t rub sin on you.

I remember when I was a kid. Whenever I started to cry all my family did was compel me to do things. For example, enforced me to “play with friends” or eat something and shove garbage down my throat. I cried, it was discontinuing until they just left me alone. This is precisely what I urged them to do in the first place! It’s humorous how history repeats itself. Every time parents attempt to make things “correct” by alternating my own actions because they think it’s what’s greatest for you they just end up demanding you to do things they desire. My path as jumped off track. I started with them holding my hand guiding the way until I cried when it was too much, all they did was criticize me with sinister remarks. Who knew the people “who sought after the greatest” for you could be so selfish. They just told me who I should associate with in school…snatched me away from the black, the stupid, the poor. They bought me into the higher class with just rude ignorant sheltered people. I’m the biggest defect in those bogus faces I stroll about everyday. My parents told me to be skinny and pretty, but what is the difference in our society? Either way all they did was try to buy my favorite foods when they knew I was miserable then bullied me calling me overweight later. They didn’t comprehend the fact I needed breathing space. I was still that crying child. My path has been reaching dead ends with stops at the devils feet; there it demanded me to sin. My parents tried to swear they would never let my hand go and maybe I have now came to the realization….they should have never held my hand since they were being me to the incorrect stop anyways. I would have been better off with a hug and a kiss before they could give me a push to run my own path. But here I lay a sinner halted in conversation with evil.


Posted on 04/27/2007 5:08 PM Visits: 72
Totalwreck: 04/27/2007 5:28 PM
thanks, ditto we are all the same as are parents are hence why we come out to be such sinners and shrew ups....hopefully not to our future children. That would be my nightmare....
Totalwreck: 04/27/2007 5:36 PM
yeah but idk, i believe I'll learn to not make those mistakes...which is what all parents do but...still...I actually believe I'll be a good parent....hopefully
Totalwreck: 04/27/2007 5:42 PM
hehe I promise I won't sucky or fucky infront of them or be too drunk to let them drink themselves.....haha.......welll idk anymore.....it'd probably be hard to manage 20 kids with petey and brenny bear lol.
Totalwreck: 04/27/2007 5:57 PM
yeah brendon has 20 and so does- wait.....pete has 21 now....hehe from me. Yep come on I'm always drunk anyways that would b there problem, trust me they'll get used to it after a few years before I die an early death.
Totalwreck: 04/27/2007 6:27 PM
I'll kill ryan next time we have fucky just so u die alone. muhahahhaa
Totalwreck: 04/27/2007 6:37 PM
cool cuz I already got a call from them in hell they say they alright, I'm picking them up soon bitch. AND ryan's ass got cut off and put on my wall and cremated the rest of the body bitch he's never coming back muhahahhaha
Totalwreck: 04/28/2007 7:18 AM
muhahahahaha bitch
Chelsea?: 04/30/2007 12:56 AM
ah, nice writing =]]]
i'm actually afraid to have kids in case i turn out like my mother...
which is my fucking worst nightmare.
parents should loosen up and just UNDERSTAND.
it's like they forgot how to feel anything besides anger.
Chelsea?: 04/30/2007 12:58 AM
haha!
that was quite an interesting conversation up there ^^^
cute, guys, cute =]
Totalwreck: 04/30/2007 4:29 AM
ah, nice writing =]]]i'm actually afraid to have kids in case i turn out like my mother...which is my fucking worst nightmare.parents should loosen up and just UNDERSTAND.it's like they forgot how to feel anything besides anger.

so true
Totalwreck: 04/30/2007 4:29 AM
haha!that was quite an interesting conversation up there ^^^cute, guys, cute =]
.........haha thanks
jillanne84: 03/29/2008 2:30 PM
Its a sad recognition The ones who thought so much to bring us into the world become the ones who can want us to leave. Theres a shadow over the truth till the age of comprehendtition. One wishes only for a hug and realizes that this comes at a cost. Forbid we were to ask to be held, for the price would be unquestionably too high. Leave these thoughts... choose to rely on those who acknowledge the bright side. I wish you more than happiness an inner peace with the past. Forgiveness in the future will remove much from your soul.
Jill
Totalwreck: 03/29/2008 4:28 PM
Its a sad recognition The ones who thought so much to bring us into the world become the ones who can want us to leave. Theres a shadow over the truth till the age of comprehendtition. One wishes only for a hug and realizes that this comes at a cost. Forbid we were to ask to be held, for the price would be unquestionably too high. Leave these thoughts... choose to rely on those who acknowledge the bright side. I wish you more than happiness an inner peace with the past. Forgiveness in the future will remove much from your soul. Jill
thank you, you don't know how much that means to me :)
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